The mirror

I guess you could call this "getting healthy part 2". The mirror has always been my worst enemy. It always tells me lies upon lies. I look in the mirror and instead of seeing a beautiful being that God created I see flaws upon flaws. I see rosy cheeks, I see a round face (not a slim one), I see a double chin, I see a smooshy belly, I see... Well you get the picture. There are countless things that I see wrong with my reflection. And all of them are lies.

I was talking about this with my hubby over dinner the other night... About how much of an issue I have with this. And he reminded me that even though that's what I see in the mirror that's not what is reflected to other people. I said this before but my son thinks I am a princess. He tells me that every time he looks at my wedding pictures. I am the roll model for my girls. They look up to me and see what they will grow up to be like. My biggest fear for them is that they will grow up feeling inadequate in their self image because that's what they learned from mommy. Such a big blow and you would think that right there would snap me out of this funk. It doesn't snap me out 100% but it does load on the guilt...

So, now that I realize this where on earth do I go? This has been a struggle for my entire life (at least since I was a teenager). It almost feels like it is a part of me. This is a burden that I need to cast off and give all of it away. I am so tired of carrying the burden of my self image on my back. "Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall." (Psalms 55:22 NLT) I need to fully put my trust in that verse. God WILL take care of me. He WILL help me overcome this burden that I have carried for far too long. Now I just have to take the first few, really scary steps to walk away from it and not have it control my everyday, my every moment. I have to stop believing the lies that the mirror tells me!

I have a jiggly belly because I carried 3 amazing babies in my body and I need to be more grateful for that. I need to do this for them, for my husband, and for me. Once I can find that inner peace, that inner beauty... everyone, including me, will benefit!