I realize that it might be silly to start up a blog to a fictitious friend but I feel like this is what I need to do to be a better daughter, a better wife, a better mother, a better me. I am a writer. That is how I process. This is how I am able to go through life. I feel like if I can write to a "friend" I'll be able to be more me... More honest. I don't want this to be a thing where I share only the good and make it feel like my life is picture perfect because it isn't picture perfect. I struggle every day with the little lies that are whispered in my ear...that I'm not good enough at being a daughter, a wife, a mommy and teacher to my kids, that I am not good enough at taking care of myself or keeping my relationship with Jesus where it needs to be...The list goes on and on.
So my goal is to talk to my friend in hopes that it will help me to become better at every one of these areas that I feel like I fail at everyday. Maybe by writing out my struggles it will help someone else that feels the same way or will help me to see that I really am not alone in these struggles.
This morning I read in 1 john 1. Verses 5-7 really spoke to me. "This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all. So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth. But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin." I realized after reading this that parts of me have been living in darkness and that needs to change. Every single part of me needs to live in the light and when that happens I will be able to move mountains. The past 4 sermon series at my church have been preparing me for this moment. So why not dive in head first, strip myself bare and become the person that God has created me to be?
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