Winter really sucks. The weather is super cold, and the roads get all sloppy and chewed up from the snow and plows. As I was driving to church today, we were driving over a TON of huge potholes! And then it hit me... Oh my gosh life is like a road filled with potholes. Things can go super smooth for a long time and then all of the sudden a huge hole on your journey comes up and then a ton of debris gets thrown all around and then maybe a few other holes come along before the road is smooth again. Know what I mean?
I feel like I came across a couple potholes today. Since my in-laws left to go back home today my goal was to get the Christmas decorations down because I just wanted my house back! My oldest, H, wanted to help me take all the stuff down. But instead of letting her help I just kept shooing her away. All she wanted to do was help me, spend time with me... And all I did was push her away. Made me really feel like a bad mommy. All the debris from my past still trickling down to my daughter. I don't want her to grow up and think that I just needed to do it all on my own. I'm a homeschooling mama.. I should be teaching her the right ways to do things. Don't you think? So tomorrow I am going to try and fill in that pothole that I have made of pushing away my children when they want to help. And Instead of making it bigger and bigger I need to be intentional to let them help. Proverbs 22:6 "teach children in a way that fits their needs, and even when they are old, they will not leave the right path." (ERV). I really want to teach my kids the right way to do things. I need to teach them in a way that works for them NOT in the way that works for me. I don't want them to imitate my poor choices. When I make poor choices I want them to see that I am sorry and that I am seeking their forgiveness.
My other pothole that I came across today was not doing my devotions this morning. I did them for the past 2 mornings and felt like I had awesome days, but this morning I skipped them. Why? I'm not super sure... But I did. :-/. I feel like this is crazy, but I think my day was worse because I missed it. I felt more out of control and not reassured. I didn't have the fall back of the scriptures from the morning to get me through the day. Does that make sense? So tomorrow the pothole will be filled in a little more as I get into the Word again.
Switching gears.... "Simplify" is the new sermon series we are doing at church. The sermon was about Filling Your Emotional Bucket. Pastor Bob started out by talking about what the symptoms of being overwhelmed and exhausted... Depleted. 1. Irritability (check) 2. Insomnia (half a check) 3. Overspending (check) 4. Over eating (check) 5. Escaping (check)... Hmmm I think I just might be a tad bit overwhelmed/exhausted. My husband, my kids.... They deserve me at my very best. They don't deserve my pothole filled exhaustion. And I think the only way to give them my very best is to fill my potholes with something that won't deplete me but that will fill me. By getting into the Word and leaning more on my Jesus...
Psalm 46:10 "be still and know that I am God..."
Psalm 23:13 "The Lord is my shepherd , I shall not want (I shall not worry). He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake." --I added the italics--
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